Emo with Beans: Archive

1/31

This month went by fast! Tensions are running high in my sorority so gotta watch out. I need to start studying more. I just have a routine and if it doesn’t go that way then forget about studying in the mornings so how bout we try and stick to tha plan. Anyway I have to get ready, I need to buy a coffee this morning. I hit Bourbon’s last night with a sorority sister and three other...

Jan 31st

1/26

School is slow right now. Thank Gawd! My knee hurts right now. I woke up with it hurting. Yes it sucks. I like being in my sorority. It’s really the only place I can openly talk about sex with girls and be geeky. I’m a hopeless romantic as well and have a semi crush on tomboy girls. lol

Jan 26th

1/21

SO this first week has been hectic. Like hell. Why do these have to be so fucking complicated? I’m losing my grip on my own self at times. It’s frustrating. I woke up early, I have class (well trying to crash a 9am or 11am). I just wanna cry. I’m pretty sure it’s my pmsing but other factors greatly influenced my urge to cry. I’m getting tired. Just stop. Time to slip...

Jan 21st

1/18

So I start school tomorrow! Ahh! My break was finally starting to look up and now it’s over. I’ma go jogging today. Maybe Balboa? or Mission? We’ll see! I liked Mission’s scary “I’ma get raaaped around the corner” feeling lol jk! well not really. Go with somebody, it’s less scarier. :] Today I’ma try and get a haircut. I need to trim and style...

Jan 18th

1/15

School starts this coming Wednesday! The month went by fast. Things are finally starting to stabilize in my life and I’m cool with it. But I’m keeping my guard up. Moka is becoming TOO spoiled. I’ma beat some sense into her soon if she doesn’t cut the attitude. I’ve been jogging trails nowadays. I jogged Balboa Park and Mission Gorge trails. Which means I’m...

Jan 15th

1/12

I was told many things growing. Excuses are this and that. Excuses come in many forms but I can’t help but wonder…is what you said an excuse? Are you using it to hide behind it so you won’t get hurt anymore? Cruelty wasn’t always your method but then again I only met you just recently so I can’t speak from your past experience at all. I am getting tired of being...

Jan 12th

1/10

So I’ve slipped into some half reality, half imaginary land. It’s weird. I’m here though…Just waiting for life to get itself back into place. School starts next week. I’ve made improvements in my life, now it’s your turn. I need to look up my classes tonight cause registration is tomorrow for me. Not gonna lie, I need a hug. :/

Jan 11th

“You’ll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you...”

Jan 8th

1/8

I seem to be drifting once more. I’m alright. What will come of this decision? My negativity seizes the opportunity to yell “nothing!” while I look away. It seems you’ve made it difficult for me to follow and I understand. Sadly this doesn’t mean I’ve stopped. I should though… Should I really say what’s bothering me? Should I? Seems like I will fall...

Jan 8th

1/6

I don’t know, stop it. My heart is losing it’s grip on reality. You scream what you want from me but your actions say otherwise. I’m confused, I’m listening to my heart but even he is lost. So tell me again…What is it you want? Oh so I don’t know what to post. This week has been hectic, like too hectic. Oh good highlight! I’ma try to work this twitter...

Jan 6th

1/4

Enough! I won’t make this about me okay? This is who you are and I must accept it even if it goes against every fiber of my being. This can be too much, why don’t you see that? For someone who advocates forgiveness (or so I remember from the past convos) you sure as hell don’t deliver. I’m sorry! Can’t you see that? Can’t you see how much I care? How much I...

Jan 4th

1/3

Remind me why I struggle so much? Remind me why I’m trying to make the impossible happen? (because it’s not impossible) Remind me why I’m still optimistic of us? Remind me why crying has become second nature to me, Remind me why I yearn for those small moments of love, Remind me. So today is a new day. I didn’t mean to write that poem, it just sort of typed itself...

Jan 3rd

1/2

So the new year has come. I hope this year is better than last. It’s not starting out that way but …I hope with time things settle down. I’m a bit lost on words, seems like I have a terrible way of handling things in life at times. Oh well, I can’t justify certain actions because the past is the past. I plan to start anew, sadly some things never change. I need a better...

Jan 2nd