September 2010
23 posts
9/30
“I have much to learn but that’s alright, I’ve found out you’re not a good teacher but a better example of what I should NOT become so thank you.”
I just made that up, my mood this morning is a bit off. I have A LOT of studying to do. I will not be attending my geology class for I will be studying with some classmates for my ECON exam. I am extremely nervous about...
“Ohh you’re dating my ex? cool. I’m eating a sandwich, do you want...”
I’m seriously getting tired of this one-sided EVERYTHING. I just want the same feelings returned but I suppose I’m asking for too much. Guess I’ll return to my reality because at least there I wasn’t getting too hurt. In the end, I’m doing this to myself, I better learn …Dammit!
Anyway I’m in Bakersfield visiting family because my uncle is in the...
“How about you stop telling lies about me and I’ll stop telling the truth about you”
9/23
So tomorrow I leave from San Diego to visit Bakersfield for the weekend. It’s nice seeing family but it would be nicer if I didn’t have two exams next week and honestly need this weekend to study instead of family time.
This week has been uneventful for the most part. Spent most of it studying. I’m a bit annoyed at this moment. Very annoyed. I let it go the first couple of times...
9/20 (end)
I slept for like two hours and thirty minutes after breakfast today. I didn’t realize I was that tired. Oh I was the first person to finish up the quiz today in Espanol. All that studying yesterday paid off. Anyway I slept, woke up, made lentils for lunch then headed to Costco for some gas then hit the gym for a good hour and half. Cardio has been my savior. I read most of the time at the...
9/20
So I feel bad I keep bailing on people, well not bailing, I just straight up say I’m busy with school but that’s been my excuse for weeks now. I can’t really find time for much nowadays and if I make time for you then consider yourself lucky and because I miss you and need a break from this crazy new reality of mine.
I woke up this morning with my back and knee killin’ me....
9/17
So last tonight was fun. I hung out with Veronica for the first time in two weeks. It was cool, we chilled in Hillcrest, ran into Jerico and talked. Then “casually” walked by Rich’s, which was funny because girls be looking but we can only…street mingle at most! lol Well ran into someone I’m not too particularly fond of. Curious as to know how SHE knew I was thinking...
9/14
So I’m beginning to get a little worn out with the whole read as much material as I can cram into my brain in one day. No matter how much I read, there’s always a couple hundred pages to go. Oh poo! I shall be uberly book smart by the end of my two years here. ;)
Anyway tonight is the big Chivas Clasico at Petco. I got my dad and I tickets. ^_^ This is something I know my dad will...
9/12
Today was tiring. I woke up went to class, fell asleep in class then went down south to babysit for endless amount of hours. Fell asleep studying on the couch with the twins screaming and breaking apart the house. I didn’t notice till my dad got back from the Padres game and was like “AHH I can’t believe you fell asleep! The twins destroyed the living room.” I was like...
9/12
So I was looking through my comp for some mp3s and ran across some of old photos of me and her. I instantly got sad than anger washed over and I had the intense urge to throw my laptop across the room.
Ha, it seems my heart still runs the show at times.
9/11
UGH! Last night was fun but this morning was disgusting. I ended walking to my car this morning to drive myself home and get ready but right when I sat down I threw up like 3 times. Now that was gross. Add 3 more times to that cause I just did again.
Anyway it was only HALF the can I drank of Four Lokos, mothafucka fucked me over good. I haven’t drank in over a month so I decided just half...
9/10
So today was a bit uneventful. I have an eerie feeling I might be gaining soda weight. It is a personal issue I once struggled with long ago and now I’ve taken notice I drink a bit more soda than I have these past years. I will put an end to it today.
Another note, I was a sad for most of today. I hate these random mood swings but damn when they appear they don’t leave me feeling...
I don’t mean to lead you astray
My heart has made up its mind on this matter long ago.
Neither will suffice.
Night Poem?
I’m sorry dear, I am in short supply of anger and guilt.
I do however carry love and joy.
Care to try before you decide?
Oh dear!
It seems your eyes have glazed over and the truth has escaped you.
Well that simply won’t do.
Here, take my hand, hold it gently and relax.
What? You say you’re scared?
I would be too.
I mean lost and confused in a world where hurt is your...
9/9
This week went by fast. I mean seriously fast. Not much of a weekend either, which is good.
I’ve noticed I keep track on how many days I’ve been “clean” lately. It’s kind of like a smoker who quits and keeps track, it helps or it doesn’t. Who knows I just do it because it takes 21 or 22 days to break a habit, right? I resorted to falling down a lot and...
Today was nice, I really enjoyed just relaxing. ^_^
9/7
So weird, I must admit. Neither one could change me but look at me now, here I slowly am. It’s amusing how people are with nowadays. I feel their tension, nervousness around me and it’s like having some sort of power. I like it but at the same time it’s still new. Argh! Not much to write about, it’s still early so I’ll leave it off at that.
pt.2
On second hand, Don’t.
Labor Day
Argh! I swear Moka has a weird way of waking me up every morning. She did it this morning by inserting her wet nose into my mouth three minutes before my alarm was to go off. Yeah, cute but awkward cause when I opened my eyes she was looking at me like I had just violated her.
Anyway yesterday was okay. I studied for most of the day. Attended Rachael’s and I weekly “Girl’s Night...
Grr
Argh! Can we say pissed off? I hope so cause I know I am. It’s my own fault for thinking it was going to happen, I already knew “they” were probably gonna not go through with it. But here a fool excited and eager to please and I get burned. Whatever. I’m only pissed because I could have stayed and chilled more with my friends but left early on them. Oh well my fault on that...
9/4
So I will conclude that the first week of classes were fun but a bit stressful. I need to continue reading my textbooks but it’s not easy when the material isn’t as enriching as a manga. This weekend, I will most likely go out ONCE and that might be tonight but not looking forward to what’s going to be there. Tempting as it sounds I can’t be doing any more pills nor be...
So found out Tuesdays and Thursday will be hella exhausting for me. I’m still not completely recovered from yesterday but oh well. I have Mondays and Wednesdays as my study days. Friday and a little bit on the weekend. I already have over 200 pages of reading due for ONE class on Tuesday. I’ma get started on that today and try to finish it all before Friday. Spanish homework is already...
